Just a reflection on where I’m at, maybe others can relate to what I’ve got going on recently. I’ve been really humbled this past week and it’s been a roller coaster of emotions. On Monday, I was unexpectedly laid off. On Friday, we lost our health insurance. And on Saturday, we totaled my car. It’s just been one thing after another….
In the midst of all that, what’s truly amazed me is the love and respect my BS continues to show me even while we’re still deep in the mess of affair recovery. Despite the hurt I’ve caused, they keep showing up (on good & bad days). They continue to handle the responsibilities of our marriage while I’ve been emotionally all over the place. I’ve been really really selfish lately being caught up in my own issues and it’s definitely been hard on my BS. And I think life decided it was time to wake me up and remind me what really matters. The last year I’ve read so many stories online where other WSs lose everything all at once (marriage, family, home, job, ect). I don’t take it for granted that I still have a partner who’s fighting for us. It’s just hard to not let your own mental health and emotions get in the way sometimes. It’s all really unfortunate, but maybe that’s what I needed to better myself.
For now I’m going to hold onto the grace my BS has extended me, because it’s special & worth everything! Praying our current situation gets a little easier everyday!
[This message edited by KarmaCat at 1:09 PM, Tuesday, July 8th]
