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I came across an audio recording in his phone. When I played it, it was sex mournings of him and a girl. There are different recordings, the girls voices are different.
When i gently told him about it, he got so angry with me saying that I went through his phone.
I decided to calm down and be quiet, after few days, he came to me and said that I was the cause of why he cheated. And is promising that he will not do it again.
To me he is not remorseful, I feel trapped in everything. I want to leave but to where. I am a stay at home mom and also a student. I dont know what to do.

I am so sorry you find yourself in this situation.

I want to address 2 things here: your H’s behavior and possible next steps.

I don’t know the laws in Canada but a consultation with a lawyer might provide you with some advice. If you have a baby, he will need to pay child support. And also possibly alimony. But get legal advice just to learn your rights.

Now into the next part which is how cheaters operate.

Of course he blames you. That is typically what cheaters do. You know you did not cause him to cheat. Cheating IS A CHOCE THE CHEATER MAKES. And it has nothing to do with you.

He didn’t cheat because you didn’t cook his favorite meal or show him enough attention or because you weren’t thin or athletic or whatever. He cheated because he wanted to. Period.

Please find a good support network for yourself (whether you leave him or stay together). Friends and family who can help you if you decide to leave or stay with him.

I suggest you start saving as much $ as you can. Put it in a bank account he knows nothing about. $5 here or there can add up quickly. If you decide to leave you want to have some $ to your name.

You did nothing wrong going through his phone. You deserve to know what he’s doing — especially as his cheating has the potential to physically harm you. If he transmit a disease to you, it could also harm your child.

Please get tested.

I hope this helps you.

Thank you so much. I was scared to talk to my sister about it. I think I have to sit down and explain everything to her.
I am just weka and tired.

His behavior is very typical. If he can make you feel bad about his affair that minimizes his guilt and shame and pushes you towards sweeping it under the rug and moving on because that is what is easiest for him

Two people in a committed relationship should not have secrets. They should know each other's passwords to everything and should be able to look in each other's phones at any time

This is when you need to do what is called the 180. This will help you take back your power and restore balance in the relationship because right now he controls the power. Stop trying to engage with him. Do not talk to him unless it involves the house or the baby. Beyond that if he tries to talk to you just walk away without saying a word

Until he is willing to accept 100% fault for his decision to have an affair, reconciliation just will not work and as long as he thinks he can manipulate you there is no reason for him to change.

He broke the relationship and he needs to fix it, and himself, because until he repairs himself the relationship cannot be repaired. If you sweep this under the rug it will come back one day much much worse.

I agree with the advice to consult with an attorney just so you have a better understanding of where you might be should the relationship end. When he asks you where you are going don't say a word just walk out