I am looking at this huge pile of bills that the bankruptcy attorney apparently didn't include in the BK, although I gave then to him at least twice, and a bunch of crap I need to do for my taxes, and this completely unbelievable study guide that came from one of my entrance exams today, and thinking, I just can't do all of this. My stupid husband should be helping me.
But he is not going to help me, even though he said he would. His name is on the bills and the taxes, too, so it's not like this doesn't affect him. He said he would take all of this over in order to support me as I study for my exams. But now apparntly he is not going to do any of it. Even if he does do it, he will probably fuck it up somehow. He will probably lose a bunch of papers that we need and then go to the lawyer and forget half of what he says, like he always does. I will probably just have to spend so much time explaining it and checking to make sure he does it right, that I might as well have been doing it all myself.
But he probably won't do anything anyway. he will probably "forget" or be "too tired" or just do it wrong.
When I started this rant, I was actually thinking it would be so easy to just give up. To say, I was wrong, you are a great guy, I should never have doubted you, I can't do this on my own, can you be a big, strong man and go see that lawyer for me???
But then I realized, that would get me nowhere. Part of the reason I am fed up with him is his gross incompetence and complete lack of common sense. That's how he was when I didn't want to get divorced, when I just wanted to believe I had a good man. There is no reason to suppose that he would handle things any better if he thought I was crawling back under his thumb again.
I am just frustrated and a little bit worried and scared, not to mention pissed that this bankruptcy won't end (ok TBH we are both at fault for that one.) I want all this legal crap that I have been battling for more than a year to be done.
And there was absolutely not point to that, just i'm tired and it's late and I wish I could study more but my brain is fried
End rant.