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Tripletrouble (original poster member #39169) posted at 3:28 PM on Tuesday, April 29th, 2014
In the big scheme of human suffering I know my problems are small, but today I feel tired.
I'm tired of the overwhelming emotions. I'm tired of doing it alone. I'm tired of being judged by people who have no idea what I've been through, much less what it would be like to experience it personally. I'm tired of being told to move on, not to dwell. I'm tired of trying to forge a new future when I was happy with the old one. I'm tired of not having anyone IRL I can talk to and feel understood. I'm tired of people avoiding me as if my pain is contagious. I'm tired of carving out time for therapy, and I'm damn sure tired of needing pills everyday just to function.
I need a hug.
40 somethings - me BW after 20 years
D Day April 2013
Divorced November 2013
Happily remarried 2018
Time is a great healer but a terrible beautician.
nowiknow23 ( member #33226) posted at 3:41 PM on Tuesday, April 29th, 2014
You've got it. (((((Tripletrouble)))))
You can call me NIK
And never grow a wishbone, daughter, where your backbone ought to be.
― Sarah McMane
IrishGirlVA ( member #39694) posted at 3:46 PM on Tuesday, April 29th, 2014
Here are some more hugs -- ((((Tripletouble))))
And I understand. If I hear, "Everything happens for a reason" one more time, I might just lose it.
getnbtr1 ( member #40540) posted at 3:55 PM on Tuesday, April 29th, 2014
People keep telling me "its gets better". That's not the problem, the problem is NOW. So sorry you are hurting and feel alone. ((HUGS))
Must Survive ( member #34533) posted at 4:14 PM on Tuesday, April 29th, 2014
((((hugs Tripletrouble))))
It is hard. I agree you have every right to feel the way you do. This shi* is hard.
I am over 2 years out and just in the past 2 weeks finally stopped taking sleeping pills. Still going to IC.
Me BS
WS: Just a squished bug on the window of my life!
Divorced-Let my new beginning start
They have a choice: they can live in my new world, or they can die in their old one." — Daenerys Targaryen
justinpaintoday ( member #42858) posted at 4:16 PM on Tuesday, April 29th, 2014
Triple: Sorry for the pain sister... we are here for you. We care.
I never realized you could be in this much pain and not be dying.
Pass ( member #38122) posted at 4:33 PM on Tuesday, April 29th, 2014
I get this, Trip. I know now that my marriage sucked, but I still miss the blissful ignorance I had back then. I have a lot of hope for the future, but that shit can get tiring!
Divorced the cheater and living my best life now.
The best thing about hitting rock bottom is that everything after that looks fucking fabulous.
Kajem ( member #36134) posted at 4:38 PM on Tuesday, April 29th, 2014
(((((((((Triplet trouble))))))))))))
I trust you is a better compliment than I love you, because you may not trust the person you love, but you can always love the person you trust. - UnknownRelationships are like sharing a book, it doesn't work if you're not on the same page.
WeepingBuddhist ( member #39139) posted at 4:54 PM on Tuesday, April 29th, 2014
(((Triple))) You can get through today.
Me: BS 46
Him: unimportant
D Day:4-27-13
DIVORCED!!! 2-20-14
dmari ( member #37215) posted at 5:18 PM on Tuesday, April 29th, 2014
(((((Tripletrouble)))))(((((Tripletrouble))))) and one more(((((Tripletrouble)))))
norabird ( member #42092) posted at 5:22 PM on Tuesday, April 29th, 2014
(((((tripletrouble))))
Tomorrow is a new day. In the meantime, we're all here for you.
Angeles85 ( member #42107) posted at 5:33 PM on Tuesday, April 29th, 2014
Triple I was about to write a new topic with your exact words. Same feeling here, I'm tired of everything u just said. Sending u hugs and I'm really sorry
((Tripletrouble))
Gemini71 ( member #40115) posted at 9:04 PM on Tuesday, April 29th, 2014
I recommend ice cream. Not the kind in your fridge, the 'have someone put hot fudge and a cherry on top' kind. It always makes me feel better.
If that doesn't work, here's some more hugs. (((TripleTrouble))
DSs 21, 16, 12
About my Ex:
IDK
IDC
IDGAF
Double Betrayal D-Day 7/26/2013
Divorced 11/18/2014
marlie2014 ( member #40981) posted at 9:07 PM on Tuesday, April 29th, 2014
((triple)) + sending you virtual ice cream.
I, too, am tired of hearing "everything happens for a reason." Who came up with that crap???
Married: 9 years
1 stepchild
DDay: 9/2/2013
DIVORCED AND FREE!!!!
AlwaysBeenStrong ( member #39888) posted at 10:24 PM on Tuesday, April 29th, 2014
I am tired too...but not tired enough to give you the (((((triple))))) for you :)
BW: 41 (me)
Divorced soon.
Moving forward.
Pre Nursing Student
Getting a Do over at 42
AlwaysBeenStrong ( member #39888) posted at 10:28 PM on Tuesday, April 29th, 2014
I am tired too...but not tired enough to give you the (((((triple))))) for you :)
BW: 41 (me)
Divorced soon.
Moving forward.
Pre Nursing Student
Getting a Do over at 42
Grace and Flowers ( member #34431) posted at 10:47 PM on Tuesday, April 29th, 2014
Yep. I get it. Over two years out and I'm still pretty tired and beat. First a hug for you (((((triple))))). Then I think I'll try that ice cream suggestion.
tryingagain74 ( member #33698) posted at 11:00 PM on Tuesday, April 29th, 2014
Yep. I still have those days myself.
(((Tripletrouble)))
I'd also like to recommend some guilty pleasure TV watching or reading to go with that hot fudge sundae.
FBS; now happily liberated!
Two DS and One DD
It matters not how strait the gate,/How charged with punishments the scroll./I am the master of my fate:/I am the captain of my soul.--"Invictus," William Ernest Henley
Tripletrouble (original poster member #39169) posted at 2:22 AM on Wednesday, April 30th, 2014
Thanks for all the SI love today. I sure have needed it. I ended up having a decent dinner and conversation with both my teens, which is a treat indeed. I then indulged in an obscene amount of high quality brownie infused ice cream.
What is it about a couple off handed comments from the judgy types or even the well meaning but misguided ones that can push our buttons so easily? I think for many of us it's because we've second guessed ourselves for months or years trying to make the "right" decisions, and we don't need anyone striking a nerve. And those well intended comments? I clench my teeth when I hear "you have to decide what you want now". Really?? No shit! I can barely put on matching clothes but I'm supposed to map out my new life.
I'm running a fever now too and this has probably contributed to my poor state of mind. Or maybe I'm getting sick because I'm emotionally drained. It all blurs.
Tomorrow we'll do it all again.
40 somethings - me BW after 20 years
D Day April 2013
Divorced November 2013
Happily remarried 2018
Time is a great healer but a terrible beautician.
gypsybird87 ( member #39193) posted at 2:58 AM on Wednesday, April 30th, 2014
(((((triple)))))
Oodles of hugs....
***triple*****
and some doggy kisses, lol.
Doggy kisses are the cure for just about everything! I was going to recommend chocolate, but I see you just had some. I hope it does the trick and you feel better soon, physically and emotionally.
Hang in there.
Me: Enjoying life
Him: Someone else's problem
Follow your heart, but take your brain with you. ~ Alfred Adler
Letting go of the outcome is about the most empowering thing you can do for yourself. ~ LosferWords
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