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It's been creeping up on me all day. I'm having ideations right now. Looking at handguns online.

I'm hurting that bad right now, and I have a long, long day ahead of me with almost nothing to do. The opera company that I'm volunteering for is off tonight.

I try to do work at home, but I can't stay focused.

I'm really sinking down. I can't take this. I can't believe it.

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255)

Please reach out to someone.

This all will pass, and it will get better.

I think most BS have been there at least once.

Please contact your local hotline, go on their website, open a chat with one of their volunteers.

This is bigger than all of us.

(((MU)))

No one is worth taking your life. It will get better. Talk to anyone!

Please don't do anything you are worth so much

Please listen to the advice above. Phone the hot line or pastor.

I attempted suicide about 3 days after DDay 1. I was never suicidal before. I got help almost immediately. I'm so glad I failed. If I hadn't failed I wouldn't have had a second chance. I would have missed out on more grandchildren being born, the marriage of my youngest daughter, etc. There are so many things other than family that I would have missed out on.

After that day I occasionally thought of dying and wishing I was dead in an honourable way. I think I'm past that now, too.

Please don't take the risk I did. What if I'd succeeded? It gets better. Please believe me. It takes time but it gets better. Please get help to get you through this.

Stay strong even if you don't feel it.

We've all been there. Three times in my case.

Try to get away from the computer, away from being alone. It doesn't matter where or what.

It helped me to find something bright. One of my times it was a bucket on the side of the road with a sign that read "Glads - $2". It's not that easy but it made me feel better.

There is another side through this crap. It's tough to see but it is there.

(((MU))))

I read often, but post rarely. I think this is fairly common. Truth be told, while doing in house separation, I wasn't just suicidal, I had an actual plan to harm my XH. Thank God, I had a friend who talked me out of it-truly, he was just not worth the trouble.

Ten years later, my life could not be better. It gets better, it just takes time.

Call the suicide hotline. Call a friend. Go out for a walk.

Keep posting

Keep posting

Hey Mister.

Many, if not most, have been where you are now. Myself included.

Use the resources suggested.

You are almost at 50 posts. Post a few more times, then inbox me if you would like.

One of the great benefits of this site is that it's international. With time differences, it means there is always someone ready to listen when your wide awake in the wee hours of the morning, starring at the black dog at the end of your bed.

I can listen, and then I can bore you with happenings here on the farm.

Don't underestimate the value.

I survived in no small part because of the kindness of strangers half a world away.

Most of all, please believe us.

It does get better.

Take care my friend.

Please reach out to someone for support. No one is worth taking your life.

Keep posting here, too! You've got 60,000+ friends that have got your back!

IC IC IC IC IC

Please go to your local ER and check in !!!! Please

(((mister)))

That won't solve anything. You're in a dark and awful place. I understand that completely. I'm not going to tell you that never crossed my mind.

Pick up the phone. Talk to somebody. Post here.

But that....that's not and never will be the answer.

Thank you for reaching out here, you've done the right thing.

Next step is reach out to someone you can talk to.

See above my post for ideas, but also the love and kindness of your SI friends pulling for you. We are in this together.

I know how awful it feels, truly.

Big hugs, and check in again. (((Mister)))

[This message edited by IceThee at 7:27 PM, September 5th (Tuesday)]

you should get somebodies contact info here you trust - their fb and/or phone number so you have someone when it get's like this

I to tried - instead of slamming the knife into my wrist and yanking up like I was gonna do - I drilled it into the top of the dresser. My dad still has that dresser - I carved it up pretty good. I did not feel better after - I felt worse. I had the A bullshit to deal with on top of explaining to everyone why it looked like someone attacked the top of the dresser with a chainsaw. I tried multiple times over multiple days - thankfully I moved it at the last minute.

Please get help - I had my mom and she helped me - once I finally told her what happened

Please reach out - (((mister))) <--- see another cyber hug - you better do something mister - something concrete and tangible for the better not the wore.

MisterUsed

Please let us know if you are ok.

There's a lot of people here and I am sure IRL who are very worried about you.

Suicide is like cheating. It will solve nothing! You are stronger than you think! It will get better I (and everyone here) are living breathing PROOF! I was where you are after Dday. I'm light light years away from that dark place. Please Mister call the ER or hotline!

Please reach out to someone. Hell inbox me and I'll give u my number. . I'll chat with ya.

Please let us know u are okay!

[This message edited by SuperDaddy1027 at 7:56 PM, September 5th (Tuesday)]

Please reach out for help. Think of your kids, your family and friends.

Pm if you need. We will get you through this. We are all in this together.

Thank you everyone for your concern. I've reached out to people for most of the night, just saying the same things over and over again--how miserable I am. How much I hate this. How jealous I feel that OM is with my wife and I'm sure they're having a fabulous time.

I see my therapist in the morning. Hopefully, all will be better in the morning.

Good to hear from you.

Stay strong.

Mister, harming yourself would only forever punish the people that truly care about you. Please continue to reach out and talk to anyone that will listen to you, it will really help get you through the low spots.

These feelings you have will fade in time, you have to just hang on and give it some time. I too have felt this way in the past when a relationship ended in betrayal. I'm in a much better and stronger place now, and you will get there too.

You may want to see a psychiatrist and look into getting on antidepressants if you are feeling this way quite regularly. They really can help in painful times lIke these. Sometimes talking just isnt enough...

[This message edited by Randy1133 at 10:51 PM, September 5th (Tuesday)]