The year from hell just keeps getting worse. I had no idea that 2022 would be such a bitch, but here I am and it's not over yet!
Without going into a ton of details, here's my year so far:
- D-day. That speaks for itself. Also had WH admit his many indiscretions over the course of our marriage. He is not who I thought he was. Our marriage is not what I thought it was.
- My brother got into a horrible accident. Thankfully he wasn't injured, but he lost the work van that he needed to run his business. He did find another one, but the whole thing (totally not his fault) cost him thousands of dollars.
- Then the same brother had a heart attack. Thankfully he got to the hospital and was promptly treated. He's doing well now, but I couldn't visit him in the hospital or support my mom because...
- WH brought us the gift of Covid. He decided to return to an activity before I thought it was safe. He came down with it, as did our older son and I. I had to stay away from my brother for weeks after his heart attack because I couldn't risk giving him Covid.
- Luckily our younger son did not get it since he was about to get on a plane for a summer job in another state. He stayed negative and made his flight, but I didn't see him for the entire week before he left except to say goodbye through a window. No hugs. That was hard.
- After our son left, the plumbing in our house literally blew up. Over $15,000 later, it works. There goes part of the savings account.
- Then my aunt died. She was my last surviving aunt and now I'm worried and sad for my uncle who isn't used to being alone.
- We got to travel to see our son where he was working his summer job. BUT, his best friend and his mom had to cancel out of the trip because they both had Covid.
- As soon as we got there, our son said he had been fighting a cold. I gave him a test. BAM! Covid! He spent much of our trip isolating upstairs in our rental house. WH's brother and our son's GF cancelled their trips to join us since we had all been exposed. None of us ended up getting it and we did get to spend a day of quality time with our son at the end of the trip. But it was mostly him at the house and us going out during the day without him.
- Fast-forward to the present. I took my sweet rabbit to the vet yesterday because I noticed some concerning symptoms. He likely has a mass in his chest. The next step is to see a specialist for an ultrasound to confirm the diagnosis. The only option for a cure will likely be surgery. Steroid treatment might be an option, but only to keep the tumor from growing. The prognosis is not great. He's only around 7 1/2 years old, so I expected to have him for at least a few more years. He's been a huge source of comfort to me this year. I sit on the floor and he comes hopping over to climb on me and then settles down for pets. I didn't think I would be facing the prospect of losing him so soon. I'll see what the next vet has to say and make some decisions from there.
- Our son is coming home today after 4 months at his summer job. I can't wait to hug him! But he'll only be here for about a week and a half before he moves across the country with his girlfriend. I'm very excited for them, but I'll be so sad when he leaves. And some of his time at home will be spent with us making decisions about the rabbit that he also loves very much. We will make the best of his time at home, but now this other thing is clouding it.
So, that's my 2022 in a nutshell. I do have a good IC that I see online. She taught me a journaling exercise and I did a long entry last night. WH is being supportive about the bunny and is going to leave work early next week to help me take him to the new vet.
I think I deserve a big piece of cake today. And maybe a drink. Thanks for letting me vent.
