The first D-Day anniversary is coming up, and I feel worse than I have in a long time. For a while, I really thought we had a genuine shot at reconciliation. And then the next moment, I’m thinking about separating.
My WH has *so* many issues to work through - none of his relationships have ever really worked out, whether with partners, his daughter, or anyone else. I know he’s putting in serious effort with his therapist to unpack his childhood stuff. But sometimes I feel like I’m sitting in a tiny nutshell in the middle of a huge ocean. He’s trying, his remorse is real, he’s doing everything he can to make me feel safe. And still, I’m completely drained.
Life keeps throwing things at us (that’s just how it is, nothing you can do about it), but they keep leading to conversations that take *so* much out of me. I’m trying to keep it together, keep doing well at work, keep my life going. But last night I had a full-on breakdown and couldn’t stop crying. It felt just like right after D-Day.
I’ve been in therapy myself since then, and it’s helping. But I’m worried because I feel like I can’t handle anything anymore - I’m really fragile, exhausted, and just have no energy left. I used to be a very energetic, outgoing person. Now I feel like a complete wreck.
Has anyone else been through this?
