Hi do you say you see him because you are seeing that he is completely changing as a person, owning his adultery and the destruction of your relationship and he is crawling over broken glass by the regret of what he done for you, being present with no excuses minimization, lies, always open to discuss your feelings and pain no matter what and with no regard how it can pain him to face the evil he chose to inflict you?
If that’s a yes to all, then you might been seeing him as a person who is reforming and becoming a safe partner finally, and that can help you to be able to feel emotions again for him (still does not mean you will be able to heal yourself and reconcile, but without that reconciliation is simply impossible).
If some of the answer is a no, or a yes "but", then you are NOT seeing him because he has not changed and he is still the cheating husband.
Not reformed, not guilty, just careful and flying low …
In this second case what you feel might be limerence, a projection of your fantasy and needs, not the reality of reciprocal love.
And that’s dangerous considering he is a cheater.
This doesn’t invalidate what you feel, but it should warn you about red flags.
You don’t have to rush the divorce if it’s not your intention to divorce.
However if you are changing your mind because he is a changed man or you’re changing your mind because of limerence, that’s a completely different story and it might end hurting you badly.
If you want to share more I am sure you can get more understanding from people who have been there
