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22 August 2026 I found out my super kind and sweet husband had been having an affair with some who works for him. I haven’t slept properly, I’ve lost about 10 kilos from not eating. At first, my resting heart rate was in the 90s, at least that’s settled.
The more details I add the worse it gets. He trickle truthed me at first. It was only a couple of months while we were separated, then never while we lived together. Then, it was happening right up to January this year.
My husband and I have been together for awhile, and our relationship has endured different seasons. But now I look at him and I don’t know him. At first, when I found out I asked too many explicit questions, which he unfortunately answered. Now I am left heartbroken.
He started a business in 2018, employed her remotely in 2019. Then in 2022 she moved cities to be in the same city as us. At that time her marriage fell apart.
I hold him responsible 100%. And he betrayed me. However, she booked the hotel the first time. She love bombed him with gifts. Moving cities, according to her, was partly motivated by being near him. I have so much hate towards her.
I want to heal, I want to build a happy and healthy marriage. I want to look at my husband and not imagine him with her.
For the short term, they need to work together. She now works from home and their contact is through work channels only which I see most days. I am satisfied the affair is over, he shares his location I do not think they have continued. But how do we progress? I think I’m ok, then while lying in bed a violent jerk awake because the images in my mind are so traumatising.
I want my marriage. I want my husband. I want my life back.

You will start feeling better when she’s no longer employed by your Husband.

But you will need to feel safe and that is his job - - to make amends, have true remorse, do anything to start to rebuild trust with you and make you feel safe.

FYI it takes years to recover from this. It’s a trauma. You will have triggers. You will be on " high alert" and suspicious for awhile. But you will start to see that you will take some steps forward )and then maybe one back) but month over month you will see improvements.

I’d suggest getting a counselor just for you to help you heal. It will help you decide what you want and what you need from the marriage.

The cheater should also get counseling (also individually).

I hope this helps you.

Thank you for your message. We are both in individual therapy and couples counselling. I agree wholeheartedly, the ongoing contact, albeit minimal and restricted to work is troubling. There’s some business restructuring that should start to settle by July 1. He doesn’t see her working for the company long term. Obviously I have no contact with her, but the day after I found out we did have a phone conversation. She said then that she was in love with him, feelings he says he does not reciprocate. So while he might want her to leave the business whether or not she will is completely unknown.

I smiled reading your tag under your message, survived two affairs, happily reconciled 12 years on. It’s possible, it takes two committed people. Thank you.

Welcome to the unwanted club.

Before thinking about reconciliation it’s important you put above anything else you’re healing.

Him too.

He is broken, and he broke you too.

Until you fully recovered from this trauma and he completely changes a true reconciliation (which I understand you want) is domed.

You must heal yourself and he must do his own healing.

Unfortunately is not going to be a fun ride, there will be likely more blows as the lies fall like a house of cards, before he truly realizes (if he is sincere) and owns what he did. Until then you can’t count on him.

You must put yourself first.

Don’t keep the emotions locked in, allow yourself to be heard, is what you need the most.

You have been heard

One thing: You all need to talk to an employment lawyer…I’d be a bit worried about claims she may have against your husband.

So sorry you’re going through this.