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You are an inspiration! I wish you peace and strength today. What a wonderful way to take this date back.

(((blakesteele))))

I will be thinking of you this morning and wishing you strength and peace.

You children are so lucky to have you. You are setting an amazing example for them.

You really don't need my wishes for strength, you continue to show it in every post.

This is such an important part of your life, I am so happy for you that you are reclaiming it.

(((StillStandin1))) (((Itsaclimb)))

you both should have been in my opening post...you are both among the members I am specifically thankful for and specifically pray for!

Thanks once again for chiming in and supporting me.

It is I who is lucky to have my girls....what a blessing and joy they are. Proof that God exists....no way could my wife and I make something so special all on our own.

God is with us all.

.....2 hours and counting!

[This message edited by blakesteele at 6:07 AM, September 10th (Tuesday)]

LOLOLOL Blake, we were both awake at the same time early this morning for very different reasons! I hope your morning is full of wonderful new memories, sprinkled with a few new hopes. Hug those kids, they grow up wayyyy to fast!!!!

T

I DID IT!!!! It was wonderful. I am a morning person and it is so enjoyable to spend my most alert time with my family. My wife got up to see us off, my girls were full of life....okay, so my oldest is NOT a morning person, but I even delighted in her sluggishness!

It felt great all the way to the school.

As I left the school I felt a sudden and deep saddness...then anger....then back to saddness. And this is GREAT! I have developed SOME skills to move my anger out of the way to get to the underlying primary emotion.

This year has proven that this is a key and critical step from me to process through lifes trials.

Ironically...my wifes fAP was no where to be seen. I say ironically because last year I prayed he would NOT be there when I walked my girls to school...and each time he was. One time in particular he cut between me and a teacher I was visiting with....you can't get any closer than that!

But this time...when I was fully ready for this test...he did not happen.

I have come to realize their are no coincidences in life.

I can't say for sure why he was not there today...maybe God thought "Enough, blakesteele has passed the test...he is where I want him to be now with regards to this issue. He is now in a better position to accomplish the great things I have in store for him" Maybe not. I am doing what many of you have told me to do....enjoy the present! So I will not overthink this....much.

I will tell you it was if I stepped up to the plate, primed to hit one out of the park....and the pitcher intentionally walked me to first base.

Yeah, I would have liked to increase my batting average...but, hey, I am on base and my team (my family) has a better chance of scoring a run now. So who am I to feel dissappointed?

God is with me....he is with my family....he is with all of us.

This was a good event.

p.s. Who would have thought a 42 year old man who has battled wild fires in the rockies would consider the simiple act of walking his girls to school such an accomplishment? Hardly the things movies are made of...would be laughable to the average, non-affair affected man.

Thanks to the many on here who continue to suppport me...both directly with nice posts and indirectly by their courage to post their personal and not so glamorous struggles to process through adultery.

[This message edited by blakesteele at 10:10 AM, September 10th (Tuesday)]

My schedule is such that I will NOT be able to pick my girls up today, as I had originally planned.

BUT, I can meet with each of them at lunch and share that meal with them....which is still a pretty cool way to spend my 1 year antiversary!

Blake....I am so happy to see the excitement in your post. I actually felt how upset you were to not be able to swing at even one of those pitches!!!!

It is so fulfilling to see someone get to where they are no longer sliding backwards. The excitement they hold for a new beginning..... The chance of even better things to come in the future.

Enjoy lunch with your girls. and then give your wife a killer smile and a hug when you see her later. She will know instantly that you have been able to scale the hardest part of your journey and she will get some relief that you are making it happen.....now!!!!

T

Such a happy day

So VERY VERY happy for you and proud of your progress...

Darn it, the screen is all blurry again and the allergies are making my nose run... Need Kleenex.

Enjoy your lunch!!!!

New poster, but I having been reading your story. I am glad your morning with your girls was great. I wish you many more.

thank you TxsT, Stillstanding1, and Honeyme...it is a good day.

YESSSSS! I knew one day I would open this up and see this post from you my friend!

You have already made the walk. So for this morning and from here on out remember what I said to you this past summer....we are all walking with you.

Blessings to you!

LA

LA.....yeah that's a great way of putting it and I would even be willing to stand up to OM if need be.....!!!!

T

(((((LA44)))))

You are one of my original brat pack members ....good to hear from you!

What wonderful support from ya'll! (That's how my good friend in Texas talks....guess I am thinking of him today too!)

[This message edited by blakesteele at 12:38 PM, September 10th (Tuesday)]

It is a victory for BSes and marriages affected by adultery, everywhere. Blessings to you, my man.

You are one of my original brat pack members

You got it! (have been laying low with school just starting but its all good).

Look at all the wonderful comments for you. Today was a good day for me, reading this made it that much better.

As they say in Texas.....

YEEEEHAAAA!

I love this blake! Thanks for posting it

I have been away from home most of the day. Stopped in for a quick check and saw your post!!

Can't respond now, but so very happy for you Blakesteele!

Can't wait to read all the post, catchup with what happened and to respond appropriately!!

Your joy comes thru, loud and clear, blake.

Although it's been many years for me, having lunch with my babies was always a blessed event.

You made me smile today.

Love this! You are an inspiration!

Congratulations on reaching this day, with dignity, and with JOY!

TJ, Wildland fires? How interesting! I just retired about 1.5 years ago from Large Animal Fire Rescue from the Humane Society. And I have to say, I don't miss it at all, especially the part where we had to come back after fires passed through to vet check ranches...