I've asked myself that question along the way. A few times. It sure seems easier to walk some days. But as NTV said, the pain will not last forever.
I'm thinking the pain or the scars of it follow us regardless of the path we take.
Rebuilding is tough, but when I read the positive reconciliation stories atop the forum, I began to formulate a series of goals for this marriage. What did I originally sign up for, what do I want the relationship to look like? Knowing perfection is impossible, what would it take to build a realistic, quality relationship?
And with a wife who hates that she caused this pain, who is figuring out how she betrayed me and her own standards -- who is an amazing mother of my sons, and finally understands I'm the guy that has been there for all of her best (and worst) moments.
I've been hurt in the worst possible way, but we have this chance to be smarter, stronger and have the relationship we were supposed to have from the start. That hope for something more real than the games and bullshit we had before -- overcoming our worst days, well that is worth one last shot to me.
