Hello all my friends,
I’m doing great! I had a few very low days right before the one year anniversary of me throwing him out of our home. (April 30) but I’m healing and much happier without him.
Whenever I feel like I’m missing him it doesn’t take long for me to realize that there is nothing worth missing. The idiot claimed our son on his taxes after I told him that I was claiming him and he’s really messed up my tax return. I’m going to report his fraud to the IRS on Monday. He came over last Friday to finally clean out the outside shed of his tools etc.
while here my son and I overheard him talking to his new wife/AP on the phone. (Sons bedroom window is above and across from the shed. He was so nasty and macho sounding, his tone had vicious anger in it and he said, “I’ll be leaving here as soon as I clean out all of this shit and load it up into the truck”. and my son and I looked at each other and said simultaneously we don’t miss that! He’s trying to hard to be
good, he’s going to blow. I’ve seen it so many times and do not
miss his angry 😡 selfish tantrums. He hasn’t changed at all. I guess I must have told myself that he was made better by his soulmates love 💕! 
he’s still the same miserable entitled jackass! I wasted so much of my life and time worrying about pleasing him and i can’t get that time back.
I really like being on my own for now.
My son said yesterday that he’s ready to meet his Dads new wife and their baby. His Dad has put so much pressure on him to do that. So I guess that will be happening in the future. I’m proud of him for forgiving his Dad. I also forgave my X but that doesn’t mean I’ve forgotten what he did or that I trust him. It just means that I’m moving on with my life unburdened by his behavior and not wanting him to be punished. I just don’t care anymore.
I was really depressed this past winter but I got through it. I’ve started taking care of myself again. I’m doing a couch to 5K running program that is refocusing my energy and helping my mind and body feel stronger. It’s a six week program with a goal at the end. I’m not singing the Arianna Grande tune “thank you Next” by any means over here but there is life after infidelity! Thanks everyone for your kindness and help. You have all been such a big part of my recovery!😘
