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“St Ides” by Macklemore- One line that just guts me even though the song isn’t about anything remotely related:

“Crawling under broken fences

When shit gets hard you know who your friend is”

Literally can’t hear that line without a small heart attack.

The whole world's scared, so I swallow the fear

The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer

So cool and limed and we try, try, try

But we try too hard and its a waste of my time

Done looking for the critics 'cause there everywhere

They don't like my jeans, they don't get my hair

Exchange ourselves and we do it all the time

Why do we do that, why do I do that?

Why do I do that?

Oh, pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel

Like you're less than fuckin' perfect

Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing

You're fuckin' perfect to me!

You're perfect, you're perfect

Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing

You're fuckin' perfect to me

Breeze still carries the sound

Maybe I'll disappear

Tracks will fade in the snow

You won't find me here

Ice is starting to form

Ending what had begun

I am locked in my head

With what I've done

I know you tried to rescue me

Didn't let anyone get in

Left with a trace of all that was

And all that could have been

Please, take this

And run far away, far away from me

I am tainted

The two of us were never meant to be

All these pieces,

promises,

and left behinds

If only I could see

In my nothing

You meant everything,

everything to me

Gone

Fading

Everything

and

all that

could have been...

Please, take this

and run far away,

far as you can see

I am tainted

Happiness and peace of mind

were never meant for me

All these pieces,

promises,

and left behinds

If only I could see

In my nothing

You meant everything,

everything to me...

I really cope a lot with songs. I listen to them all day. So I like posting on here. Sorry if [ irritate some.

Garth Brooks more then a Memory

People say she's only in my head

It's gonna take time but I'll forget

They say I need to get on with my life

But they don't realize

Is when your dialing six numbers just to hang up the phone

Driving cross town just to see if she's home

Waking a friend in the dead of night just to hear 'em say it's gonna be alright

When your finding things to do not to fall asleep

'Cause you know she'll be there in your dreams

That's when she's

More than a memory

Took a match to everything she ever wrote

Watched her words go up in smoke

Tore all the pictures off the wall

But that ain't helping me at all

'Cause when your talking out loud and nobody's there

You look like hell and you just don't care

Drinking more than you've ever drank

Sinking down lower than you've ever sank

When you find yourself falling down upon your knees

Praying to God begging him please

That's when she's

More than a memory

She's more

She's more

'Cause when your dialing her number just to hang up the phone

Driving cross town just to see if she's home

Waking a friend in the dead of night just to hear 'em say it's gonna be alright

When our finding things to do not to fall asleep

'Cause you know she'll be waiting in your dreams

That's when she's

More than a memory

People say she's only in my head

It's gonna take time but I'll forget

Where are you tonight, I wonder?

Where will you be tonight when I cry?

Will sleep for you come easy

Whilst I alone can't slumber?

Will you welcome the morning

At another man's side?

How easy for you the years have slipped under

And left me with a shadow the sun can't dispel

For I built for you a tower full of love and admiration

But I built it so high I could not reach it myself

Where are you tonight, I wonder?

Where will you be tonight when I cry?

Will sleep for you come easy

Whilst I alone can't slumber?

Will you welcome the morning

At another man's side?

The view from my window is a world full of sadness

The face in my mirror is the one face I know

You have taken all that's in me, so my heart is in no danger

Oh my heart is in no danger, but I'd still like to know

Where are you tonight, I wonder?

Where will you be tonight when I cry?

Will sleep for you come easy

Whilst I alone can't slumber?

Will you welcome the morning

At another man's side?

There is a silence and it cannot be broken

There is a pure heart, it's there I will go

Time will work its healing, and my spirit will grow stronger

But in the meantime, I would still like to know

Where are you tonight, I wonder?

Where will you be tonight when I cry?

Will sleep for you come easy

Whilst I alone can't slumber?

Will you welcome the morning

At another man's side?

This is what POSOM and XFWW was like. She was googoo gaga over him. He didn't give a crap about her...except as an ego boost at having something I had. Also, my XFWW is objectively very attractive if she puts any effort into it. She looks like Dawn Wells (Mary Ann from Gilligan's Island) except more curvy. Also, she's always dressed VERY conservatively...long skirts, high-necked blouses, hair usually in a bun, all clothes loose fitting. But for him, she let the tiger loose. That is until I blew his world up, cost him 2 careers (military reserve and his security clearance job), his own marriage, the respect of his kids and peers and a boat load of cash. Oh,his health took a downturn too. But I ramble...sorry.

Follow Me

You're better off if you don't ask why…

I’m looking through you

The Beatles

I'm looking through you, where did you go

I thought I knew you, what did I know

You don't look different, but you have changed

I'm looking through you, you're not the same

Your lips are moving, I cannot hear

Your voice is soothing, but the words aren't clear

You don't sound different, I've learned the game

I'm looking through you, you're not the same

Why, tell me why, did you not treat me right?

Love has a nasty habit of disappearing overnight

You're thinking of me the same old way

You were above me, but not today

The only difference is you're down there

I'm looking through you and you're nowhere

Why, tell me why, did you not treat me right?

Love has a nasty habit of disappearing overnight

I'm looking through you, where did you go

I thought I knew you, what did I know

You don't look different, but you have changed

I'm looking through you, you're not the same

Lost and all alone

I always thought that I could make it on my own

But since you left I hardly make it through the day

My tears get in the way, and I need you back to stay

I wonder through the night

And search the world for the words to make it right

All I want is the way it used to be

With you here close to me

And I've got to make you see

That I'm lost with out your love

Life without you isn't worth the trouble of

I'm as helpless as a ship without a wheel

A touch without a feel

I can't believe its real

And someday soon I'll wake and find my heart won't have to break

Yes, I'm lost with out your love

Life without you isn't worth the trouble of

All I want is just the way it used to be

I need you here with me

Oh darling can't you see

If we had love before we can have it back once more

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: David Gates

Lost Without Your Love lyrics © David Gates D/B/A Kipahulu Music

[This message edited by Lostallalone at 10:02 AM, March 24th (Tuesday)]

"The Reason" by Hoobastank

I hated it so much when it first came out but i cannot count how many times I've listened and cried to it after D day.

Since I'm a mad hatter....

"Jolene" by Dolly Parton

Heard this the other day when BH and I had alone time, made me cry like a baby. Definitely reminds me of his OP.

I’m a little older. The Burt Bacharach generation. This is the song my wife sent me when I moved out. I must say it was kind of touching and made me sad

A House Is Not a Home

Luther Vandross

A chair is still a chair, even when there's no one sittin' there

But a chair is not a house and a house is not a home

When there's no one there to hold you tight

And no one there you can kiss goodnight

Whoa, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

A room is a still a room, even when there's nothin' there but gloom

But a room is not a house and a house is not a home

When the two of us are far apart

And one of us has a broken heart

Now and then I call your name

And suddenly your face appears

But it's just a crazy game

When it ends, it ends in tears

Pretty little darling, have a heart, don't let one mistake keep us apart

I'm not meant to live alone, turn this house into a home

When I climb the stairs and turn the key

Oh, please be there, sayin' that you're still in love with me, yeah

I'm not meant to live alone, turn this house into a home

When I climb the stairs and turn the key

Oh, please be there, still in love

I said still in love

Still in love with me, yeah

Are you gonna be in love with me

I want you and need to be, yeah

Still in love with me

Say you're gonna be in love with me

It's drivin' me crazy to think that my baby

Couldn't be still in love with me

Are you gonna be, say you're gonna be

Are you gonna be, say you're gonna be

Are you gonna be, say you're gonna be

Well, well, well, well

Still in love, so in love, still in love with me

Are you gonna be

Say that you're gonna be

Still in love with me, yeah

With me, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

Still in love with me, yeah, yeah

This song always represented everything I loved about my husband and my marriage. Now it is a painful reminder of what I lost, or maybe what I never really had in the first place. I still can't listen to it without crying. I don't feel at home in this life now.

Don Henley "Taking You Home"

I had a good life

Before you came

I had my friends and my freedom

I had my name

Still there was sorrow and emptiness

'Til you made me glad

Oh, in this love I found strength I never knew I had

And this love

Is like nothing I have ever known

Take my hand, love

I'm taking you home

I'm taking you home

There were days, lonely days

When the world wouldn't throw me a crumb

But I kept on believing

That this day would come

And this love

Is like nothing I have ever known

Take my hand, love

I'm taking you home

I'm taking you-home

Where we can be with the ones who really care

Home, where we can grow together

Keep you in my heart forever

And this love

Is like nothing I have ever known

Take my hand, love

I'm taking you home

Taking you home

And this love

Is like nothing I have ever known

Take my hand, love

I'm taking you home

I'm taking you home

“Alone” by Bishop’s Green:

“What it's like to feel love

What it's like to feel hate

From the bottom of my glass

To the scars upon my fists

But I can't see to clear

Through my clouded mind

And I don't feel to good

And I can't remember why

What it's like to feel hate

What it's like to feel rage

And i dont want to be kicked around

Pushed knocked down

And I can't get to close

Fear that I could snap

And it all points to you

Tormended mind

You left me bloody on the ground

Beat down and all alone

No one else around

Alone alone alone

Bloody on the ground

Beat down and all alone

No one else around

Alone alone alone”

But the very end:

“Beat down beat down

Never give up

Beat down beat down

Never give up never give up“

Never give up.

This was already listed above, but I need to second "I'm Not the Only One" by Sam Smith.

You and me we made a vow

I know I'm not the only one

It all depends on where you are in the process... in the beginning, when I suspected, or right after d-day I listened to a lot of:

"Jolene" by Dolly Parton

"(It Looks Like) I'll Never Fall in Love Again" by Tom Jones

"You Really Got a Hold on Me" by The Beatles

"Ever Fall in Love (With Someone You Should'nt've)?" by the Buzzcocks

"She's Got You" by Patsy Cline

"Crying" by Roy Orbison

"The End of the World" by Skeeter Davis

"Strange" by Patsy Cline

"Crazy" by Gnarls Barkley

"Mad World" by Gary Jules and Tears for Fears (two different versions)

"My World is Empty Without You" by The Supremes

"What Becomes of the Brokenhearted" by Jimmy Ruffin

"Suspicion" by Terry Stafford

"Lonely Teardrops" by Jackie Wilson

"If I Can't Have You" by the BeeGees

and the entire "Sing the Sorrow" album by AFI

And then I worked in...

"White Flag" by Dido

"Hey Ya!" by OutKast

"It's Not Right but It's Okay (Thunderpuss Remix)" by Whitney Houston

and

"Tower of Strength" by Gene McDaniel

When I kicked WH out and we had virtually no contact for months aside from mediation meetings, I ditched the emo playlist and had a much more fun/ready to party/let's do this one instead.

"Harmony Hall," Vampire Weekend

We took a vow in summertime

Now we find ourselves in late December

I believe that New Year's Eve

Will be the perfect time for their great surrender

But they don't remember

Anger wants a voice, voices wanna sing

Singers harmonize till they can't hear anything

I thought that I was free from all that questionin'

But every time a problem ends, another one begins

And the stone walls of Harmony Hall bear witness

Anybody with a worried mind could never forgive the sight

Of wicked snakes inside a place you thought was dignified

I don't wanna live like this, but I don't wanna die

Ooh, ooh, ooh

I don't wanna live like this, but I don't wanna die

Within the halls of power lies a nervous heart that beats

Like a Young Pretender's

Beneath these velvet gloves I hide

The shameful, crooked hands of a moneylender

'Cause I still remember

Anger wants a voice, voices wanna sing

Singers harmonize till they can't hear anything

I thought that I was free from all that questionin'

But every time a problem ends, another one begins

And the stone walls of Harmony Hall bear witness

Anybody with a worried mind could never forgive the sight

Of wicked snakes inside a place you thought was dignified

I don't wanna live like this, but I don't wanna die

Ooh, ooh, ooh

I don't wanna live like this, but I don't wanna die

And the stone walls of Harmony Hall bear witness

Anybody with a worried mind could never forgive the sight

Of wicked snakes inside a place you thought was dignified

I don't wanna live like this, but I don't wanna die

Ooh, ooh, ooh

I don't wanna live like this, but I don't wanna die

And the stone walls of Harmony Hall bear witness

Anybody with a worried mind could never forgive the sight

Of wicked snakes inside a place you thought was dignified

I don't wanna live like this, but I don't wanna die

Source: Musixmatch

Songwriters: Ezra Koenig / Ariel Zvi Rechtshaid

Harmony Hall lyrics © Universal Music Corp., Lion Of God Publishing Co, Neon Reggae Co Op City Music