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Incredible how many just found out I have to write.

But this time will not be the life story.

So... I just found out. 1 Adultery and 1, likely 2 other betrayals.

This sets the score to at least 12, maybe 13 cheatings from her.

The one in the absolute light:
I found out not even a full year into our relationship, she was in Germany, having sex with a German guy, while she was supposedly crazy in love with me, since it was fresh.

Is one of the many I found and confronted her just few weeks ago, she denied it all, she swore she never met this guy (a bartneder) and nothing ever happened.

Then I find an e-mail to her friend telling how with this guy is "over, over, and once again so over".

She lied to me, denying it even while we are following therapy and she is swearing to change.

The beauty is that the pain I felt right now is as intense as always:
That sharp stab in your gut, intense, souls crushing.

However, I think I am good, because I felt it fully, very intense, I grieved, cried, and felt immediately light.

I can integrate betrayal emotions, they do not scare me anymore.

This does not change the fact that now is the Betrayed Husband who is "over, over, and sooo over".

I will "have fun" when she comes back tonight.

Let's see how many more, I am making a collection.
I married a serial cheater.

I’m saddened to read this. I hope you are ending this relationship/marriage soon.

You deserve better.

I hate this for you. I really, really do man. TFW is right. You deserve so much better.

Thank you guys.

Since I got this gift I left one for her too:
I recorded my cry of grief and pain while it was happening, it short, but since she thinks I feel no emotions she will keep that as a reminder.

Not out of pity, I actually do not give a fuck, but maybe she can see what human emotions look like and what she was so nice to gift me.

Perhaps one day she will remember why there is consequences to what you do and choose.

Isn't it funny that the pain of a new DDay is still as strong as the first one?

But the thing that surprises me is how fast it goes away now, I find it funny in a dark, ironical way.
I actually feel lighter because I knew already and I found out the evidence.

And there is some bitter satisfaction in finding out that she is still lying and giving trickle truths.

One thing for sure, I saved all this stuff.
If I walk away my daughter needs to know why daddy had to leave.
It was because mommy could not decide if she wanted daddy or just any penis she ever met would do.