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So, I am finally here. In my new space. In my new retirement - without him. The love of my life. The only one that I have been committed to for a total of 52 years. The one that when I remember back in the beginning - I still love. I remember him, and I love him. He is the only man that I had children with. But, yes - there is a but. I doubt that he ever loved me the way that I loved him. He most likely wasn't real that way. I will always wonder that. I won't ask him, because I have blocked him. He does not know where I am, and I hope that he doesn't find out. I really like my new home, in the area that I hoped and prayed that I could afford after the divorce devastated my savings that he didn't know about until I filed for divorce. So strange. I never thought that I would be divorced - and that I would file for it. I married the man that I love. I only wanted to be right next to him - always. But, here I am. And, so far . . . I am ok. Better than ok. I feel relief. So much less stressful, so quiet and peaceful. The last years have been hard. So very hard. He told me that he didn't love me anymore after dday. And, he showed me that everyday all those years since dday. Which, you know was scary. Like, what good could possibly come after that. He should have been begging and pleading with me for another chance, but, no I received the opposite of that. I waited days, weeks, months for that. It didn't happen. I finally shut that door. I knew if he didn't step up to the line in our last moments, that I would. Shut that door. It is the only way that I could save myself. So, now what? Whatever the f*** I want. That's what.

😃 Congrats on the new beginning! Enjoy the peace and give yourself all the love you didn't get from him!