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Jrzeegirl, I'm so sorry about your daughter.

Only two more days and I can finally say goodbye to this year of pain. My New Years resolution is to not feel anything for you anymore. The love is gone, but I still have the hate for you and that sleazebag you want to parade around with now, when before we met you wouldn't even introduce her to your family because she wasn't good enough. Guess what? She is good enough for the likes of you after all. You used me until my paycheck ran out and my health declined and then you decided she was now good enough for your two-faced family.

I hope the hell your family hates her as bad as your XWW. You are pathetic and keep trying to contact me about bullshit. Have you not seen by now I am the NC Queen? I don't have anything to say to you except where's my SS and only by text because I never want to hear your lying voice again.

None of your old friends want anything to do with you either, no matter how many cards you and OW send or how many VM's you leave them. They think your pathetic too and also an idiot because I was the best thing that ever happened to you. They knew you long before I did, but guess who gets invited to their parties now?

You tossed a good marriage away and everything we owned for a slut who has already been married three times and lives in a sleazy 1BR apartment. You threw away a nice house, 11 acres of land, and cattle with all the farm equipment for that? HeHaw!!!! She looks like a damn bird with her beady eyes and pointy nose. You couldn't even find a descent one to have you.

Yes, 2016 is going to be MY year to start enjoying my new single life while you are strapped to whorebag and probably on a very short leash at that. Also, I guess you noticed that nothing I ever gave you was included in your belongings. You don't deserve anything and you will never see any of it again because I am sure whorebags minimum wage factory job with no retirement will buy you those things again. Nope, no more expensive gifts for you. With XWW getting 1/2 of your first pension and me getting 1/2 after that, you will no longer be able to retire early and travel. I hope you have to work until you fall over from the heart attack that's just waiting to happen. So long mother fucker... 2016 is MY YEAR!!!!

((TrustGone))

And cheers to all the NC QUEENS

and also those who aren't quite there yet.

A brief to the asshole - yes I am no longer feeling any urge to speak to you. HA. You won, you lose, you empty plastic shell. I am OUT. I SEE you. You are OUT of me.

Now what I fight to resist is the desire to warn others. I don't want other women to be eaten and spat out.

Well it's New Years Eve. None of our family or friends thought you would be living where you are, or still be with her.

I wonder if you will have a minute tonight to honestly think about what 2016 holds for you and her. And then to think about what it might have held for you and me - if you had remained faithful.

Or if you had been the man I always *thought* you were. If you were man enough to admit you fucked up and honestly tried to do the hard work needed to make a new marriage with me.

People with a soul would have those kinds of thoughts. But that doesn't describe you anymore.

You and I always spent New Years Eve quietly, usually at home. I imagine tonight you'll be out with her, whooping it up, drinking yourself blind, having "fun".

I got a few invitations from friends, but I might stay home. It's just another day on the calendar.

I've almost made it through my first set of major holidays without you and I'm doing pretty damn good.

Yay me!

[This message edited by DeeplyCrushed at 8:11 AM, December 31st (Thursday)]

I wish I could get the fantasies about you out of my mind.

How I fantasize about you calling me begging for money because you need to be bailed out for another DUI.

How I fantasize about all your roommate's chickens escaping from your un-zoned backyard, the cops showing up and finding out you are housing illegal immigrants in an illegal apartment.

How I fantasize about your "great new successful" business burning down in flames before you get insurance.

Thanks OP. It's been a rough month to say the least. I just want to fix DD you know? I feel guilt as her Mom-thinking I could have done something to alleviate all this crap she has gone through.

I appreciate your post. Thanks. Happy New Year.

((jrzeegirl))

Today is hard. Missing you, your body, your embrace again. ADs have killed my sex drive and everything so it's hard to process.

So I go back to thinking of what you are, obsessing about who you were, etc. All paths lead to one place: unfeeling psycho. And that distances me but is so hard to come to terms with.

I know you're out fucking other women by now. Devaluing others you don't care about. Using them, forgetting me, remembering me when you choose to talk sentimentally about me, AS IF, as if, as if you loved me, as if you're the one who's hurting, as if you're a real human being, you disgusting deceitful piece of Sh**. How much did you hide from me, all the time? Those women who are still friends with you, what kind of state were they in to have put up with all your tells, not to have seen all the cracks? Your 2 APS, both just out of abusive relationships, worshipping the ground you walked on, clinging to you like mussels. You destroyed me because I saw through you. I know it now.

OP: Do Not Feed the Vampire.

Oh Jrzee, I can so empathise with you and your DD.

TrustGone, I'm unsure if I'd lift a finger should WH drop down with a heart attack in front of me, I might just give him back one of the many sneers he's aimed at me over the years.

OP, you're getting there. Shit is as shit does.... and he sounds like one of the very shittiest!

Happy New Year friends, here's to all of us

WTF "your hurting" im "cold" ...wtf I sent you a message confirming I didnt do as you did and cheat...end of...

You send me abuse, tell me your hurting and dam your the one whose cold.

I'm really tempted to contact you...such a pull im resisting hard...anything and everything I can do instead...Im doing it!

I hope you stop, think and gain perspective about me/us rather than just you all the time.

Hurt...it will be good for you...

Ta Mad Old Bat!

Keep going all of us... we can do it. Strength, peace & patience for 2016 and the long healing process & eventually, growth ahead.

Post it here honeydew.

NC and FTG

Keep it up.!

Last Christmas we were together and you promised to stop. So many promises and a wonderful family sacrificed for your selfish desires you flakey POS. 3 kids split between me and you and your new friend. To cap it off you come ask me help this Christmas because its your mums last. Find someone else to suck dry you lying POS

You are so cold, you XPOS. Feel free to keep blaming me for all your problems, you always have. Except I know better. And those new people you have fooled will see the true you soon. So funny that you fear me meeting the new woman in your life; I can see your fear of me telling her who you really are. All I want to do is talk to her about my kids, see if she's a safe person for them, let her know I have nothing against her as she saved me by getting you out of my life.

XPOS, I don't want you back, I don't want to destroy your life, I just want to live in peace, with you far away and you not messing with our kids' minds and hearts. Be there or don't. Stop playing games, making false promises, telling lies.

I really want to contact you right now out of fear and guilt. You failed to show up to get our daughter yesterday and never contacted me nor the kids about it. You never responded to my text nor my online message about it. (Covering my legal bases.) worst of all, you never responded to our daughter's messages to you. I hate that it bothered her, but she sure bounced back quickly, as she knows you. She knows I will always be there and you might or might not come through for her. But you also know my family history...both my sisters committed suicide. When someone doesn't respond for awhile, that fear kicks in that they may be gone. Rationally, I don't think your big ego would allow you to commit suicide, but that fear in me, it lingers. So I am writing it here instead of contacting you and giving you more "ego kibbles."

Just can't get my head around it. However sick you are, it doesn't change the pain. How could you do this to me?

Just can't get my head around it. However sick you are, it doesn't change the pain. How could you do this to me?

I have mostly been writing letters in my journal, since I have been NC since d-day except regarding moving his shit out of my apartment.

today I'm having an angry day though. I just want to scream at him.

OMFG die in a fire you pederast fuck, I hate you

Asshat, if it isn't too much fucking trouble, if you could just let me know a couple of days ahead of time when you are scheduling shit with our son during MY parenting time with our son, I would appreciate it.

Fucking asshole.

And for the record, I don't GIVE A SHIT if you'll "use the time with someone else" if I won't let him go with you. What the fuck is the matter with you? You act like I'd have your sorry cheating ass back. NOT ON YOUR LIFE you asshole. In reality, it's probably your little princess helping you pen those texts and SHE still thinks she won the prize.You deserve each other. You're a fucking train wreck and you're setting the WORST possible example for our kids. The worst.

Don't trip over your Bible on the way to bed with the whore.

<<<end rant>>>

I'm here just a smidgen too late, as I've already over engaged with WH on this topic. I'm done discussing it with him now. He isn't hearing anything I'm saying anyway. Just a bit of common courtesy, that's all. That's all I'm asking for. But his self important entitled self thinks we are all fucking on call for him.

Done. Done. Done.

btw - 5.5 months left of co-parenting with a lower muppet.

Well DAMMIT I didn't make it five minutes.

He had the NERVE to complain about the number of hours he works per week ('cause you know, I'm over here single parenting the kids 99% of the time and going to school and apparently otherwise sitting on my ass eating bon bons)and said that due to the number of hours per week he works, "things get missed" as his reason for not communicating these fucking schedule changes to me.

I replied. I couldn't help it. I told him things relating to the kids wouldn't get missed if the kids were actually his priority.

WHAT THE FUCK.

I'm not engaging any further. I don't care what he says. I'm not engaging. I'm not even going to read it if I can help it.

I'm not reading your texts tonight. I'm just not.

I can say no to you. I can say the truth to you and it doesn't matter if you agree with me or not.

I hate that you still have the power to make me afraid. What do I really think you can do to me?

Your words are just words. Letters arranged in a certain order that you've assigned some sort of meaning to. I haven't even looked at them, so why do they have power over me? I don't even know what your arranged letters say. Maybe your arranged letters are lies. Maybe you will never be honest again, because you have to lie to yourself to be able to live with yourself.

Stop being a dick to our kids.

lower muppet

Hugs Nekorb... hang in there.