Hi all merry Christmas
Right
6 weeks ago I found out
I found texts on her phone, confronted her and she said that it was a bit of excitement THAT ALL...
Oh sorry, she said that she doesn't know who it was... CANT BELIEVE THAT
I work 60+ hours a week to provide for my family. But always still seem to struggle.
She has shown remorse and has been up front about things (hopefully not hiding anything) she quit her job because that's where they met, she shows me her phone, she does seem to be trying.but the trust just isn't there anymore.
When I'm not with her it's always going through my mind, what is she doing...
I HATE that I feel like this
I know this is a cliché but I honestly thought we were soul mate and that we would grow old together
I want things to be how they were,
Not only have I lost the trust but she was truly my best friend
Things feel FAKE NOW
Maybe she's trying too hard or not hard enough
But thing are so different now
We started to have sex again about 3 weeks ago
But that's different aswell
It seems like she's just lying there
You know lie back and think of england...
In my head is..
What's she thinking of or who?
She says she's happy and that she's going to make it up to me, but it al seem like an act
Our relationship has gone
I now find myself questioning everything
Maybe it's just me. Letting my mind play tricks on me
Whatever it is, I hate it
My life completely changed in a blink of a eye
I WANTED IT BACK TO HOW IT WAS
I can't see my self without her
Seem that everyone I love leaves me
This time I think I'll leave them PERMINATLY.
I DONT WANT TO FEEL LIKE THIS ANY MORE
The pain, the emptiness the hate the anger
I was filled with love joy happiness I would help anyone, now there's only anger at the world
I need my life back to how it was