A LOT has happened since Sunday and my head is spinning.
The OW contacted me. I woke up at 4am to go to the bathroom, used my phone for the light, and saw that I had 40+ notifications on Instagram. I'd blocked her from my personal and business accounts, but she made a new account named "theliesof(husband's name)". She had uploaded screenshots of their texts and tagged me in all of them. I KNEW better, but I couldn't stop myself from reading a few of them before I woke him up, nearly hysterical. I called her from my phone, and he left her a voicemail telling her (again) not to contact either of us. Then we spent two hours with me alternating between yelling at him, him apologizing, me crying, yelling some more....
It was like D-day all over again. The thing is that I specifically avoided seeking specific information about their relationship once I confirmed the A. I did this because I knew that I would never get it out of my head if I knew the things they'd done together, stuff he said to her, etc. I felt like I had been doing fairly well not obsessing over the A or her, but this whole thing opened the wound again. Now I have some lovely mind movies in my head (fortunately nothing too graphic or personal, but I read enough to make the whole thing seem that much more real).
Again, I KNEW better, but I sent her a message that said "you need to leave us alone. I don't deserve this, and my children don't deserve for you to interfere with our family any more." I got back a novel, which I read only a little bit of before deleting.
The gist of it was that she sent me all that stuff because she had been begging him to have a conversation" with her, and he had ignored all contact. So she'd threatened to expose him if he wouldn't talk to her. He continued to ignore, so she followed through on her threat. She mentioned that her "heart was broken" and that she "deserves for him to explain to her why he ended it." I'm dumbfounded that she seems to think I should give a damn about how she feels, and by the fact that she thinks she deserves ANYTHING. I didn't read much more than that before I blocked the fake account and deleted everything. I reported the account as harassment, and it was taken down within a few hours.
While the whole thing really sucked a lot, it was a relief to know for sure that he hasn't had any contact with her. He agreed to allow me to monitor everything he does until I feel safe again, and I hadn't had any indication that he'd contacted her, but of course I know that if he really wanted to, he could find a way. I'll also admit feeling more than slightly satisfied knowing that she's suffering. I know that my anger towards her is somewhat misdirected, but I am human, after all.
Here's where it gets even crazier... Early this morning I had a message request from another no-name Instagram account. I almost deleted without opening, but I guess I'm a slow learner because I couldn't stop myself. All it was was a screenshot of a photo of my daughter with our full address typed across the bottom, Snapchat style. I tried replying to the message, but the account was deleted right after I viewed the photo. Now I'm really freaked out. H insists that he never told OW where we live, the only way she could have found out is if she followed him home or something. I tend to believe him, but in any case it almost doesn't matter how she knows. I'm 99.9% sure that this message came from her. What I can't figure out is if she's threatening me, our daughter (who is 4!) or what... Not sure what I should do. Contemplating calling the police, but not even sure what I would say, or if they would even see it as a threat? I haven't told H yet because I'm traveling today and he's in middle of a huge work project.
Any ideas, experience, advice, etc is welcome. Part of me wants to just ignore this and hope she'll tire herself out and go away. If it was just about H and me, that's probably what I would do. But I can't ignore the possibility that she has ill- intentions towards our little one.