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Almost 7 years past D Day and I told my husband I wanted a divorce. We never recovered from his almost 3 yr affair with his coworker. He continued to work with her, and when I would tell him to at least look for a job he would gaslight me. He continued what appeared to be a work friendship. He only left the job after she left. He never looked for a marriage counselor or seem to have any self reflection on the brief time in IC. He’s recently lied about credit cards, lied about drug use and wasted thousands of dollars on pills. And I just found out that he’s hiding a relationship with another female coworker and sneaking around, erasing messages, and lying about it. There’s never been a time where I felt safe enough to let my guard down. I’m done.

I told him I want a divorce. He’s now telling me I’ve used him for the past 6.5 years. He thinks I stayed because it was easier and I could be lazy and not try harder to build my business. I’ve been a stay at home mom to 2 kids, while battling bouts of depression and trying to run a small business.

I stayed because I didn’t trust him after d day with my 1 year old and I wanted them to have a relationship. I also stayed because I was in denial about who I actually married.

It’s somehow all my fault that I am done and I’m blamed for not trying. I’m blamed for not setting up marriage counseling. I’m at fault for breaking up our family. If he sees me do anything for my business now it’s a trigger and he thinks I’m only motivated to try now because I want out. That’s not the case.

Why can’t he just let me go?

Get the divorce. Every time he talks this way leave the room or the phone. You are under no obligation to converse with him except children and moving on. HE wasted those years, you didn’t. Don’t let him in emotionally. He knows how to upset you. Do the 180 for yourself, you have kids who need you.

He’s just playing his same old games— gaslighting, lying, denial, DARVO. He has not grown or changed.

He did this. He destroyed your relationship and did not even do the bare minimum to rebuild. You have been trying to heal and work on the M and build a business while dealing with the situational depression and a nervous system that has been on high alert for years. DO NOT LISTEN TO HIS GARBAGE.

When you are free of him, I can guarantee you will find, after a little time, that you have not been able to really truly relax in 7 years, and when you do it will magical. The kind of low key "ah this is how we are supposed to feel" kinds of magic.

Stay the course. Get the D going. Start the 180 and detaching.

(And sorry he’s being a pain- he’s always the victim 🙄)