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Thanks for making me an expert on escorts/whores - After finding you calling, texting and going to every local whore in our area...

Thanks for breaking my heart and spirit, because you couldnt keep your dick in your pants - I hope you put a stick note on it saying 'here' so they could find it.

When you gained your PHD I didn't realize it stood for putrid,horrid,deviant...

When you came to collect some of your belongings recently -You looked like crap and really sad...That is the price you will pay - Misery.

You lying, selfish, sack of shit. You never deserved me you stupid fuck!! I was too good for you and you couldn't see it. You say I didn't love you but you never understood how I showed my love. You were such a baby, selfish to the end. Couldn't stand that we had kids and suddenly you weren't the centre of attention anymore!! Poor baby!! Grow UP you stupid idiot!! How nice that she gets to hold your hand and stroke your pathetic ego all the time bc she doesn't have kids or a life for that matter. Go fuck yourselves you stupid selfish asses!!! And now I can't go watch my girls Xmas concert because she has to attend!!??? WTF??? When did she have more rights than their MOM!!! The way you rationalize shit never ceases to amaze me!! GO FUCK YOURSELF AND DROP DEAD!!!!!!!

I wish I could hug everyone here, especially WowItsReallyReal.

I thought about writing someone out a few times but it didn't seem worth the energy. Today I have something.

So, Asshat, you are turning 34 today. How does it feel to be 34-years-old with no home, no vehicle, no money, ruined credit, and bringing a new baby into your situation? Do you really like your fiance's tiny apartment? Was sex with the trashy whore next door worth the state of your life today? As much as you apparently hated the life we had together, it's funny how you replicate the parts you can afford and just insert different women. I guess our life must not have been so bad, huh?

DS woke up this morning throwing a fit because he didn't want to be with you today. I don't know if it was right or wrong of me but I reminded him it was your birthday and that you would likely like to see him...I don't know anymore if that's true. DS then started getting upset because he didn't have a present for you. I already know what a worthless human your pregnant fiance is but to leave DS out of getting you a gift when it is HER job now? Pathetic. Way to think of DS. I let DS pick out a box of your favorite candy this morning at a gas station on the way to daycare and he put a Christmas bow on it. DS knows your favorite candy but do you even remember his?

Everyone keeps telling me I'm so much better off without you and I didn't start agreeing until about six months ago. But I bet no one tells you that about me.

DS knows your favorite candy but do you even remember his?

Wow lilies that makes me so sad and angry on behalf of your little man....

Everyone keeps telling me I'm so much better off without you and I didn't start agreeing until about six months ago. But I bet no one tells you that about me.

^^^but then this, and oh yes we all know this is true. Go lilies!!!

So tonight you get to take whorenado out to see the comedian you claimed you bought tickets for us to see......and you have to ask your sister who lives 200 miles away to come and babysit.......this is your happy??? Is it a happy life if the only person you can ask to babysit lives so far away? Does being happy make you look vacant and puffy, as I hear you do?

You bought those tickets for her.....let's face it. Just another lie to take and add to the ever growing list. It seems easier somehow when your actions have consequences but when you get to carry on as normal it hurts.

Eta: lost63 my tithead has a PhD and yep that's what his stands for.......mine I like to believe stands for pretty honest and decent!!!!!

[This message edited by Igglepiggle at 10:25 AM, December 10th (Thursday)]

Sucks to be you doesn't it?

You blew up your 29 year marriage, tore your rotator cuff trying to work out to empress her,. You are now left with 20k you spent on her, a rental place you signed for but can't live in, loss of your ex- wife's health insurance and 3k you have to pay your ex-wife monthly!

All through your cheating delusional thinking.

[This message edited by lizgwvet at 1:12 PM, December 10th (Thursday)]

I don’t have a “no contact” order but I’d like to vent.

Sixteen years after the divorce was finalized I still have to deal with courts and expensive attorney fees. You used political connections to squeeze money from my wallet to fund your lifestyle with your many "boyfriends." I don't care who you choose to be partnered with. I do care that 16 years in support & all the income tax benefits you stole are funding your weekend trips, your expensive gifts to Mr. whoever, and your (many) boyfriend's hobbies. I’m tired of paying and I want my life back goddammit!!

I hate that you put a wedge between me and our children. The gulf is so large now that I will never be able to have a real father/child relationship. I hate that you wanted to change their last name to that of your boyfriend at the time. I hate that you say hurtful and untrue things about me to the children. I hoped that now that they are adults they would come around. One tried and there was no love left in my daughter's eyes for her father. No tearful “hello dad I missed you” a half a decade of not seeing my children has had such a deep and devastating impact that I doubt I’ll ever be allowed to be the father I know I am. I hate that when you sent your boyfriend to pick up the kids from me, that he brought a male friend and the pickup location was the parking lot of a strip club. Do you not understand the amount of rage I felt watching my daughters go in a car with two grown men horny after watching some chick dance naked? The quality of men you attract is representative of you. You disgust me like no one ever has.

If you wanted to play the field you should have never married me or divorced me first. Instead you chose the most hurtful way and I am the one paying the price. I’m mad as hell and have been for almost two decades. You never deserved me. Do you think I was never tempted? Do you not know how many of your girlfriends made passes at me? I never cheated and never will. I was taken and made sure they knew it. My ego doesn't need to be stroked. I valued our marriage above carnal desires. Even when I was a confused 20 year old man I knew the value of a strong marriage.

I should never have allowed you to verbally and physically abuse me. Punching, kicking, yelling, insults, and attacking me with a knife should have been my clues to leave. I was naive to think love can overcome such things. I learned my lesson and no one else has ever treated me the way you did and never will. I won't allow it.

I hope you find yourself one day in a fire ant hill. I want you to feel thousands of bites of excruciating pain. Only then will you begin to understand the harm and pain you caused the children and me.

To the hundred or so men she fucked; better get yourself checked for STD's because she doesn't like condoms.

OP - (((hugs))) so sorry you're struggling with the anxiety. Have you been able to maintain NC today? It does get easier...it's really hard right away but you'll start to realize that you feel better without all the drama in your life. Make sure you're doing things for you!

Great thread -thanks for starting this! There are obviously a lot of pent up emotions and thoughts from all of us.

I miss you. I know I asked for a "clean break" if this is what it was going to be, and you have given me that. Part of me hopes that you miss me too. Part of me hopes that I am not REALLY as disposable as I feel. I assume that you have now resumed contact with her...I feel so worthless knowing that. I feel like I don't matter at all.

Still through all of this I hope for love again. I still hold a small piece of hope for you even though I have been through hell. I still hold on that maybe you will someday see my worth and miss me too. I hold hope for the future. I hope that I will meet a fantastic man, who will love me entirely without reservation, who would walk on hot coals to be with me, who will love me despite all my imperfections. I hope this man will be kind to our kids.

We talked twice today, briefly and mostly business like. Refund, insurance, Dental coverage. I really wanted to ask about your day, how you slept. I really wanted to tell you about the crazy dreams I have been having. I might have just used the reasons first listed as an excuse to hear your voice again.

Oh god why is this so hard? I so badly want to ask if this is hard for him too....but I know that is counter productive. I know that will just keep the yo-yo in motion. This will bring it to a stop, this above all else I am in control of. I can get off the fence...

We were together for 25 years. I've got nothing to say to you that you don't already know. No point anyway as it's all about you.

Hi Rosie,

Thanks. I'm still very, very anxious. I think it could be the ADs. Unfortunately next doctor's app. with social security will be on 18th so I have a way to go before I can talk about it.

I'm managing NC! Yeah!!! ***** Stars to all of us and more stars to those who slip up occasionally.

Did walk by his car yesterday though. Hate the damn thing.

Today was a rough one. I kept thinking about how you and I always looked forward to Fridays. We loved our weekends so much.

I still miss you dammit. I can't wait for the day when I don't.

I'm sure you don't miss me. You don't have time...you're never alone

I miss the life that we had. I can't belive that everything is gone forever: our plans, daily activities, friday movies, trips, you cooking dinner on saturdays.

Now everything is gone. I will leave the past alone in a time capsule to rot and disappear forver. I promise I will bury that imaginary capsule containing all my memories of our life and will never touch it again! I just want to forget! And not be able to remember anything anymore. I want to stop hurting.

Just....... what a complete tosser you are!

Out to get some chipboard? I can GPS you in the pub. Thought that given your proclivity for young barmaids that you swore you wouldn't go drinking out on your own again.

.... and you really don't want a divorce?

Tough shit Sherlock.

Thanks OP & Lilies_

I've hit a bit of a rough patch, been avoiding SI & FB as a result.

I have no real IRL support, and the holidays are taking toll.

You both thinking of me brought me to tears....it's weird, but it's "nice" to have someone acknowledge the pain/struggle.

Hugs to everyone, this is one hell of a thread!

So tithead today you took your whore and prized baby to meet your family. My replacement is complete!! Did you play pretend happy families or actually tell people the truth........oh yes truth, a word you don't know cockwomble!!

It is the hardest when I sit here with nothing to do. My heart aches. But I will not pick up that phone, I will not text. I am worth more than that. If you want to be with your whore, go ahead, I am done. I will always be the best thing that ever happened to you. It is I who made you, I am the brains behind this whole operation. I hate that I hurt because of you.

I am no contact except regarding kids. I finally filed harassment charges and he's left me alone for the past month. I finally feel like I can breath and my head is clearer.

I miss you, 16yrs together and it's been reduced to nothing, all because you chose virtual whores and a slut you worked with over your family. What do you have now? Nothing. A shitty apartment, no relationship with your boys, ass loads of debt. Although knowing how your reality is distorted, you probably don't see that bad in this, you did everything you could to get rid of me so life should be a fairytale for you. I may miss you, but damn is life better for me. I'm angry still although becoming less as time goes on, I can't trust a good man to be honest and faithful to me, I search for the bad in people now rather than focusing on the good, I still have traumatic thoughts of those painful days and they bring me to tears, I struggle with the whys of it all and probably always will.

I can't believe you have only seen your kids 7 times this year, and then get mad at me for calling you their fun uncle. Sorry, but that actually is offensive to your own brother who sees your children more than you. Sorry but seeing your children for 2 hours when it's convenient for you isn't a father. It's simply a POS. But I guess you are 2 busy playing daddy to her kid that it doesn't leave time for the 2 you actually have.

I hate that I constantly feel like she won. 15 years together and you leave me without a second thought for some stupid bitch who knew me, knew you were married. I wish you both every unhappiness in the world. I hate that sometimes when I look at that beast you are with, I can't help but think why! I hate judging people on their looks, but damn, that is one huge and ugly bitch. But then again her personality can't be that great if she has no morals and actually tried to fight me while you stood there and did nothing while your whore came up from behind and pushed the mother of your children. But then, just like now, I walked away you stupid piece of shit, because I have more class than that. Plus I wouldn't want to touch that lip, which always seems to have a reoccurring herpe in the same place. You say it's a dog bite scar, but sweetheart scars don't get filled with puss. You both disgust me, and the only good thing about you being a deadbeat dad, is my children do not need to be around the 2 of you and your disfunction and toxic relationship. And I seriously am curious what lies you tell her about why in 2 years she has only met your kids once. I can't believe this is who you turned out to be. You suck.