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And to my ex-MIL -

What a proud moment that must have been to stand by and watch your son and the whore acting like a bunch of shit faced college kids in front of your sober, college aged grandson.

Wow. Parenting finish line reached.

Fuck you and your new "Miss perfect who runs a non profit"

You should have spent the day with your daughter - it's her freaking birthday instead of driving up to see your new thing.

I am so overwhelmed with caring for our autistic son on my own. Overwhelmed and broke. Why do you get to just run off into the sunset and be free??? Even the lawyers said he should be with you. I just wanted one evening to go to a concert with my friends, you said you'd watch the kids so I could go then now Miss perfect comes calling and you fucking ditch us.

I am not your friend. Do not text me.

I feel worthless. I feel like I'm disgusting and unlovable and no one will ever want me again. You threw me away without ever trying to fix what we had, without ever trying to work with me. I would have done anything...ANYTHING to make our marriage work because I loved you. I lived through four celibate years because you stopped touching me and I didn't know why. All I knew is that it was what you needed so I went without.

Now that I found out that it was ME you didn't want, I'm terrified that no one will every want me again. I miss the physical closeness of another human being desperately but I'm such an emotional mess that I don't know how I will ever trust someone enough to risk being rejected again. Just one more thing you took away.

Wow you have the nerve to text me and indirectly apologize. Compliment me about my parenting skills and proceed to let me know you "almost" lost your job. What's wrong? Are u feeling guilty for what you did to our family? After marrying the girl you chose over your family because she was more important as you stated you now decide it's the right time to try and talk to me let us not forget you didn't even ask for your daughter you haven't seen in 6 months. What a loser you are. See u in court asshole

WTF is wrong with me that I miss you so much?

Please God, let me stay NC and let the pain ease enough for me to breathe.

F*** you! You can play games with money. Promise DS18 things and then back out. Bully DS13. You know what? None of it matters! You lose. You lose everyday. You have lost everything in the world that really matters. You lost your morals, your family, and the respect of DSs.

Enjoy the rest of your life!

I need to do this more than ever. Please God let me stay NC.

Do you feel any guilt? Not remorse for all you lost in the divorce...our newly built house and our land. I hear you're trying to recreate our life with your new wife. The 'nice lady'...nice ladies don't get fired for dressing too proactively or stealing! You married to help you buy more acreage through a farm loan. So, do you feel any guilt for treating me like crap, all the lies, promises and loyalty to COW and not to the woman who stuck with you for 18 years? The value of our property is going up every year. At least you didn't take my dream away too...although you tried! Even after all that, I still miss you. I feel something is missing in me that only you can replace. You cannot contact me since I have you blocked on my phone and my property is now gated and locked. My heart wants you to be missing me and the life we shared. My brain knows you threw me away like garbage. But I keep needing to text you...anything. glad to find this thread.

While you are happily moving in together and looking forward to the birth of your new baby, I am still dealing with all the shit emotions about the affair. I mean it's only been 10 weeks since I found out. I know you would love for me to get over it so you can just go on your merry way. So we can co-parent like a fucking team! Where was that team while we were married? You let me run myself down doing everything and to get help I had to ask. Why didn't you just open your fucking eyes and help. It was exhausting being your parent too. You never followed through on promises when I did ask for help. Exhausting. Even with you as a poor excuse as a husband, my mind hits me with "he doesn't love me" today. Like it was the first time I was realizing it again. My husband stopped loving me while I was oblivious. And he started loving a broken girl who made you feel "appreciated and WANTED". Fuck you. So while you are probably giddy that you can live together and prove your love, I remember that feeling with you too. It didn't last because your lazy ass real self is going to show up. Rather quick too with a new baby. Replacement me is going to quickly realize that you are not really a dad. You only pretend to be one. You don't want me to hate you but you forget how well I know you. Without the rose colored glasses and my insane thought throughout our whole marriage that it would get better-that we could have a good marriage. I am left with the truth about what kind of man you really are. That's more than hate. That's power. Power will heal me. I get better while you slide back to what you've always been. When you hit rock bottom I will wave to you from the top. Fuck you and fuck your pregnant whore.

You fucking piss me off.

"After all those years of dedicating my life to them". Right dumbass. You were totally dedicated to them and suddenly you started thinking with your dick and POOFED.

What the fuck is wrong with you that you can't SEE why the kids are hurt and why they can't stand that stupid whore?

Someday I may not give a shit about your affair anymore - I almost don't give a shit now because it set me free of you. I don't think I will EVER forgive you for the way you have treated and continue to treat our children. You're just a selfish prick and I fucking hate that about you.

Actions over words mother fucker.

I seriously can't stand you right now.

I've looked real hard at you.

and you are revolting.

You're a WHORE.

I see you literally bending over backwards to "nice" your way into

sex,

money,

business,

favour,

You are disgusting.

I am repulsed.

A torn ligament and crutches, eh? Maybe, just MAYBE, a 50 year old shouldn't be playing football with 20-30 somethings.

Maybe.

Grow up.

Fuck you

Seriously another trip up to see your whore but you refuse to help me with the kids. I'm fucking exhausted, working two jobs, and depending on my BPD mother to help me. She sucks the life out of us but I have no fucking choice. I'm so lonely and exhausted.

I will not accept another "I can't take time off" excuse again. Go fuck yourself

Only you would complain about how much counselling cost you after inflicting so much pain. Thanks for letting me keep the 13.00 change after paying the therapist to help me out for the week and then telling me how you ordered a 50.00 pizza and ate take out all week.

You are a piece of sh$t.

"Have a good day" you just texted me. WTF is wrong with you? Ten days from Dday....I'm sure I am going to have a great day. NC NC NC.

I miss him and I really wish I didn't.

Dear POS,

Thank you for deciding that DS and I are not worth your time or effort. Thank you for really really allowing me to see the severely damaged, self centered, self absorbed, self entitled sack of shit that you are. You DESTROYED my life and that of DS in a matter of a year because you are too much of a coward to face what you have done, let alone FIGHT for your family. You have no backbone, you are a pathetic sorry excuse for a man and I wish you'd pulled that trigger when you had the chance, but alas, you were too selfish and cowardly to do even that. I knew you would never, you love yourself way to much to actually ever end your life. It was another sad attempt at trying to manipulate everyone. You are nothing. What you have done to us will not be forgotten. It will always be remembered. I know you're able to sleep at night, you are able to eat, you are able to smile even after all the hell and pain you wrought, but guess what??? That will be short lived. You see dear, you are NOT the winner in this. I AM!! I won my freedom and my sanity from the likes of you. I do feel sorry for your next conquest. She gets to be with a liar, cheater, manipulator, and drug addict. She will soon realize what you are and she will leave you just like you left us.

Enjoy your new single and responsibility free life. Maybe you'd do us all a favor and OD next time you decide to snort drugs into your nose.

Fuck you asshole.

Sincerely,

Your awesome, beautiful, smart, and loving STBXW

Ugh.

DD is sick today with the flu and I cannot miss anymore work. F$ck you for thinking you shouldn't have to pay anything. F&ck you for not talking to your older children and leaving them to feel so sad. You're an a$$hole. F&ck you for leading your flea infested ho bag to this site so I can't post anymore. I hate you.

It is amazing how you work such LONG HOURS, yet I know you were at OW house at 2pm today. Hmm, you could've come home to see your 2 DDs! But no, you had other plans.

You are so self centered. You saw your girls for a grand total of 1 hour this entire week! How can you not see this? You murdered our family, just as your dad did to you and your brothers. Walking in his footsteps I see?? What a nice role model he is.

You have abandoned us. Strong work...

You should know that your son didn't want to go to your house this weekend. You're a fucking idiot for thinking the kids are doing fine with all the news you keep dropping on them. When the kids hate you it won't be because of me. This is all on you.