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I was on his phone (which has been attached to his hip). Saw emails dating back to 2012 that he was sending to ads on Craigslist for blowjobs, pics, and oral.

According to him he never met with anyone, but the tone and content of the emails show that he's been trying for all he's worth, so I don't buy that shit at all.

I'm sorry to say I lost my shit and beat the crap out of him. Hope he has fun explaining his black eye to his brother at work tomorrow. Asshole.

Oh Gaby, I'm so sorry hun. We are here for you.(((Gaby)))

No more hitting though. You already know that isn't right and you don't want to get into trouble legally.

[This message edited by lieshurt at 10:57 PM, July 12th (Saturday)]

I am such a fucking idiot.

We haven't slept together in over a year. He's been having problems with his AD meds (or so I thought), so although I spoke up about it on multiple occasions, I didn't push very hard.

He lost his job back in 2012 (when he seems to have started his new "hobby") so he had lots of time on his hands.

He's in school full time and working part time with his brother. In other words, I am supporting his ass and he's out fucking me over.

Oh my freaking god I want to kill right now.

We have been living paycheck to paycheck (or worse) for over two years. I've been trying to hold it together (financially) while he finishes school and this is the thanks I get.

Fuck. You.

Seriously. Get the fucking picks you've been sending to your sluts and shove your own dick up your ass. Especially the one with the red bow tied around it. Wrap that shit up and shove it up your ass.

He was taking a nap when I found the first set of pic that he sent.

I woke him up and held up his phone. His response to my, "What the fuck is this?" was to say "I was going to send those to you.".

Really? We haven't touched each other sexually in over a year and all of a sudden you're "about" to send me pics of your dick? I slapped him and he recanted that story and started talking.

I've got the email account under my own password as well as his TWO adultfriendfinder accounts.

He's supposedly signed up here and getting his shit straight. We'll see. Right now I really don't give a fuck. I can't decide if I'm more pissed off or hurt or just fucking DONE with all the bullshit over the last few years.

I'm so sick of his bad decisions piling shit onto MY life. I'm fucking DONE.

Gaby, I am so sorry! :( You are one of my favorite posters and it breaks my heart that this is happening to you all over again. I don't need to tell you to stay strong, I KNOW you will. I am just at a loss for words. :(

I am beyond shocked and horrified for you, Gaby. After EVERYTHING you have been through.

Obviously we're going to have to talk about the hitting - hopefully we can keep that to another thread. For tonight, I am just so brokenhearted for you. He was supposed to be "the good guy."

Fucking dammit.

(((GabyBaby)))

Thank you all for the hugs.

The rage is calming down (and my hand hurts) so no more hitting. (I am not apologizing to that fucking ass though).

I have no idea what to do now. None.

I did it all wrong the first time. I don't know if I can deal with this again.

@Jrazz - yeah...I thought he was one of the good guys too. Guess who the sucker is.

(((Gaby)))

(((Gaby)))

I'm so sorry to hear this.

[This message edited by LosferWords at 11:50 PM, July 12th (Saturday)]

Hang in there Gaby.

(GabyBaby) I'm so sorry. Do not call yourself a sucker. Be kind to yourself. He is the broken one. He is he sucker for not realizing and appreciating what he has at home.

Oh Gaby I'm so very sorry. I don't know what to say, it just sucks so bad. Wtf is wrong with him

Damn, Gaby. WTH??? I'm so SO sorry. And absolutely furious on your behalf. ((((((GabyBaby))))))

We're here for you.

I had to read the name on the original post five times before I was convinced it was really Gaby. I'm so sorry this is all happening again. I have no solid words of advice, except that you will get through it and we are all here to see to that.

Awww Gaby, it's not your job in this life to continually excuse or forgive the crap behavior of selfish, self-entitled assholes, one after the after.

Unfortunately, it would appear you got another lemon.

Use your strength and experience from the last time you dealt with this to help guide you and make your decisions.

It honestly sounds as though you'd be a lot better on your own. Why carry this albatross financially and emotionally when he can't even show you any respect?

Good luck to you.

I caught my husband...

Still so shocking...I still can not believe this is happening. This is the second time I found pic of women and text messages to whores to set up meeting times. It has only been a month. He's been living in a hotel since I threw him out. Tonight he moves back in. I'm terrified and I have no idea if I can pick up the pieces of my broken heart.

So thankful for finding this safe place to "talk" to others who have suffered this. It's completely overwhelming. He's in therapy 3x week. He says he will do anything to save his family. I hope this is true. It's going to be a long long road...

Gaby, I'm so sorry. You deserve so much better than any of this.

((((Gaby)))))

Oh Gaby, I'm so sorry.

Do you have a plan? Are you eating?

It just sucks.

Sending strength and (((hugs)))

I'm so sorry to hear this Gaby.

If you feel the need to hit anything take it out on a pillow.

GabyBaby,

I am so sorry. I have a special soft spot for others that have to deal with multiple ddays.

You will get through this, you are strong. You already know this but I know it still hurts.

You are not a sucker or a fool. You are a wonderful, forgiving, and loving woman.

Right now though, try to give most of your love to yourself. You don't need to know what to do right now. That helped me to calm my mind, I would just tell myself when I felt overwhelmed by what do I do??? I don't have to do anything right now and that is my decision for right now.

I hope you can have a little peace today. I hope you can get some sleep and eat something, also don't forget to drink, water that is.

I didn't do very well with the basics after dday 2, it is as if you forget. I am having some issues now because of that. Nothing awful but lots of hair loss and that does not help with the self esteem side of things. Stress and poor eating. Try to take care of yourself.

I will be thinking of you today.