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Ginny ( member #43196) posted at 1:29 PM on Tuesday, May 5th, 2015
No matter what happens today, you CAN get through it. You will survive no matter what you find out. You WILL be happy again someday. Today is an opportunity to hear the truth, that's all. You can be strong, NP5. You have a whole community here that has your back and only want what is best for you and your family. Peace.
BW49
FWH50
DDay 11-02-13
Married 30 years
2 month PA/EA with COW
DS28
Trying to R
tushnurse ( member #21101) posted at 1:33 PM on Tuesday, May 5th, 2015
Me: FBSHim: FWSKids: 23 & 27 Married for 32 years now, was 16 at the time.D-Day Sept 26 2008R'd in about 2 years. Old Vet now.
5454real ( member #37455) posted at 1:37 PM on Tuesday, May 5th, 2015
Sending strength and Mojo.
Honestly, given her reactions, you either have a parking lot confession coming or she will fail the test.
Hope to God I'm wrong.
Please, go through with the tests.
BH 58, WW 49
DS 31(Mine),SD 29,SS 28(Hers),DS 16 Ours, DGS 11, DGD 8, DGS 3
D=Day #1 5/04EA (Rugswept)
D-Day #2 3/10/12, TT til 3/13/12
Married 13yrs
"I have no love for a friend who loves in words alone."
― Sophocle
Autumn22 ( member #41810) posted at 3:13 PM on Tuesday, May 5th, 2015
Please go thru with the test AND please make sure to include a question that covers the possibility of other affairs/men besides the music man.
Me: BW 48
Him: SA 44, multiple EAs, porn addiction, entered "recovery" in 2013 - no remorse, no empathy.
Married in 2000, divorcing
convert ( member #46684) posted at 3:18 PM on Tuesday, May 5th, 2015
BH - me 48
WW - 46
one son
together 28 years
married 25 years
in R - trying anyway
notperfect5 (original poster member #43330) posted at 3:28 PM on Tuesday, May 5th, 2015
Thanks you all. I have included a question to cover other men, more than one encounter with music man, verifying some of the statements she has made, and other visits / situations that are still question marks.
Already the poly has been very valuable for my healing. Today should finish it up.
Edith is ready! I am ready! We're both a little nervous but also looking forward to it being done!
Me: 55 BH Her: 52 WW - Edith12
DDay 8/13 EA, fake R
Turned PA on 4/27/14 and fake R
PA during MC and my IC and her IC through 12/14
Polygraph on 4/30/15, TT 5/5/15.. TT on 10/4/15, 2nd Poly and TT 11/17/15
DD's 23, 21, 18, 15 DS
Ascendant ( member #38303) posted at 4:22 PM on Tuesday, May 5th, 2015
hopefulmother ( member #38790) posted at 4:37 PM on Tuesday, May 5th, 2015
Just chiming in. Don't be too hard on yourself about how you handled anything. This is a confusing and difficult journey that we aren't really prepared to deal with. There will be lots of mistakes by both parties. I wish you all the best. Just keep posting. Try not to take anything that she does and did personally. For all the world, this is not about you. This is really all about Edith's breakdown, issues, brokenness, and mid-life crisis. Focus on yourself and healing. Do not focus on the outcome. Focus on how to make yourself a better person. Married or not. It isn't hopeless no matter what. Some WS's on here took a long time to get their head out of their asses. I know mine did. Nearly 7 months. Some fail, but some don't. We are doing well. Even with a major TT at 18months. Now we are going on to three years and closer than ever. If I had listened to some people in my life and given up on a completely clueless man that was having a mid-life crisis, I wouldn't be here today planting a crab apple tree in the garden that he is helping me to make in order to make me happy and share our future. 
Me-BW 44
WH-44 zugzwang
D-day 9-4-12
Major TT 8-14
Friends since 1993
Married 2004 with 2 children
My wedding band is a symbol of hope, forgiveness, love, and grace.
sofakingcensored ( member #41862) posted at 4:42 PM on Tuesday, May 5th, 2015
Good luck today NP5. I hope you get the answers you are looking for.
confused615 ( member #30826) posted at 4:43 PM on Tuesday, May 5th, 2015
BS(me)44
FWH 48
4 kids
M: June 2001
D-Day: 8/10/10
..that feeling you get in your stomach, when you heart's broken. It's like all the butterflies just died.
Didact ( member #42867) posted at 5:13 PM on Tuesday, May 5th, 2015
Stay strong, keep your promises to yourself.
Hoping for the best for you.
No matter how painful, life either adapts or it dies.
BH (Me) 49
WW 48
Married 1985
D-Day Mar 19, 2014
1 year passionate EA/PA, ended by me on d-day.
Attempting to R
forgivinglola ( new member #35601) posted at 6:33 PM on Tuesday, May 5th, 2015
Good luck today! I hope you get the answers you want and need.
DDay: 10/13/2009Status: In R
Igotthis ( member #47771) posted at 8:00 PM on Tuesday, May 5th, 2015
I hope you get the answers and closure you are seeking so you are able to move on healthier from this.
StillTrying11 ( member #43814) posted at 9:01 PM on Tuesday, May 5th, 2015
Stay strong, np5! We're all here no matter what happens today! 
37 years old
6 kids
Married: 2000
Ddays: 2/10/12, 4/10/12, 6/10/12
Done Day: June 6th, 2016
Ducks finally in a row for D: 9/6/19
notperfect5 (original poster member #43330) posted at 9:13 PM on Tuesday, May 5th, 2015
Holy Crap!!
3 hours 15 minutes and interrogator still needs another half hour! I only put 2-1/2 hours in the meter. If she gets towed it will be her divorcing me!!
Me: 55 BH Her: 52 WW - Edith12
DDay 8/13 EA, fake R
Turned PA on 4/27/14 and fake R
PA during MC and my IC and her IC through 12/14
Polygraph on 4/30/15, TT 5/5/15.. TT on 10/4/15, 2nd Poly and TT 11/17/15
DD's 23, 21, 18, 15 DS
tushnurse ( member #21101) posted at 9:30 PM on Tuesday, May 5th, 2015
Me: FBSHim: FWSKids: 23 & 27 Married for 32 years now, was 16 at the time.D-Day Sept 26 2008R'd in about 2 years. Old Vet now.
Igotthis ( member #47771) posted at 9:32 PM on Tuesday, May 5th, 2015
Didact ( member #42867) posted at 9:32 PM on Tuesday, May 5th, 2015
Proud of you for going through with it, and for maintaining a sense of humor. Well done.
No matter how painful, life either adapts or it dies.
BH (Me) 49
WW 48
Married 1985
D-Day Mar 19, 2014
1 year passionate EA/PA, ended by me on d-day.
Attempting to R
notperfect5 (original poster member #43330) posted at 10:25 PM on Tuesday, May 5th, 2015
Fully R'd, and Happy Happy Happy
Oh Tush, what I would pay to be in your shoes...
Except they would be way too tight and I'd be married to a guy... So never mind.
How much longer can this thing last????
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Me: 55 BH Her: 52 WW - Edith12
DDay 8/13 EA, fake R
Turned PA on 4/27/14 and fake R
PA during MC and my IC and her IC through 12/14
Polygraph on 4/30/15, TT 5/5/15.. TT on 10/4/15, 2nd Poly and TT 11/17/15
DD's 23, 21, 18, 15 DS
Igotthis ( member #47771) posted at 10:27 PM on Tuesday, May 5th, 2015
Breathe, you can do this, I am impressed, you took a big step today, it was brave.
High Fives!
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